last night the surgeon called per our appointment. i did not join his handful of unfixable shoulders. he was able to stitch the torn stuff back together. he said that i tore some of the previous repair and it didn’t look like i healed well from that repair. concern is blood supply to tendons which don’t receive much anyway and that the tendons have been  previously damaged. i need to learn what i am able to do to increase the blood supply. i have control over voluntary muscles during PT when that time comes. i gave him healthy material to work with except for the damage.

moved out of duff’s to sunshower’s rented room. new social standards to learn. i imagine i will live mostly away from her place, sleeping and showering.

my idea now is to stay here in sedona until start pt then head out on a road trip, destination prineville,or. i’m thinking a visit to bill in the zunis and mark and brenda in salida.

i sat outside again yesterday in the sun reading again. i have a very red head.

rain is forecast here over the next several days and chilly.

i drove today for the first since last thurs. right hand ignition requires me to stand between the seats then turn the key w/ my left hand. the seat belt requires too much twisting to insert the belt  catch into the receiver down on the floor. driving w/o a seatbelt. i successfully negotiated the 2 round abouts.

i sit on the front porch of the bean. i came up w/ an idea to create humor. jan will make a sign for me to the effect of “stories told about mountain biking the states. learn how your state’s trails compare. 50 cents per story. picture of you w/ jp is free.”  i will figure a suitable collection container.

i watched the snl skit, down by the river. motivational speaker. i have lots of time but am unable to roll doobies w/ just 1 hand, besides i vape. over my travels i have slept down by the river in places that aren’t as white trash as what the skit suggested that would happen as a result of smoking pot. time will tell how stereotypes of pot smokers will change. border states to Colorado which is making tax revenue from pot, hence is in a bind to increase demand and say, Kansas, which is causing public schools to close early because of tax cutting governor and pot is still a crime. Colorado will have better funded schools as the tax is self imposed.

the requested surgeon’s report was not in my in basket this morning when i fired the computer. i called the same number and was greeted by the human voice. she said the email was sent yesterday pm. a mispelling of my email was the cause. she corrected and said she would send it right away. i waited till mid afternoon then called back. voice mail. she called back shortly saying she sent it 2x. email address was correct. she sent it a 3rd time, still not receiving it. she said she could fax it. jimmy suggested the red agave right by me. i asked the woman at the desk (not tracy) if she could receive a fax for me. i told her i knew tracy and was not a paying guest. she allowed the fax because of a connection. i called the surgeon and left voice mail for the fax number. she called me minutes later saying she hit the sent button. i walked back to the agave and slid the 3 page report into my hand. i thank the desk person then walked outside sitting on the top step as it was the shortest distance from the counter.

pre and post diagnosis agreed:

right shoulder rotator cuff tear recare, massive with impingement and retained old suture foreign bodies with synovitus

right shoulder arthroscopic rotator cuff tear repair, arthroscopic foreign body removal, acromoplasty, extensive glenhumeral debridement.

described me as “a pleasant gentleman” ” he tolerated the procedure very well. there were no known complications.”

the report continues with how his team stitched me back together. i have a scheduled tele consult tomorrow night. my question to him: my shoulder when healed will allow me to resume my active life style? i will only be satisfied till i hear him answer my question. “rotator cuff full thickness 100% supraspinatus tear with 70% of infraspinatus torn and old sutures present in multiple areas.”

i worked on my ipod adding music. i found that all of imported cds are in istores. i’m adding music to ipod using playlists. i discovered that i can select individuals to listen to.  i have been sleeping listening to music, new creations.

spent afternoon sitting in the sun till burnt then the shade reading the wwII book. red head: red scalp.

friend terry reported on his first ride w/ the pike on his new turner burner. he was enthusiastic. fork is super as i know.

listening to home broadcast of the mariners game. rick rizz.

stuck my nose in a honeysuckle vine / bush. so fragrant. i remember riding the sylamo in ar one summer. i couldn’t smell anything past their bouquet.

6 loveinox syringes were prescribed, one in the morning second later in the day. my right hand is captured by the super sling not allowing me to inject myself, i sought shooters from bike and bean. matt, who drove me home gave the first shot. sat morn i gave the story to lars, president of vvcc and an emt. sat night and sun morn was amy, a nurse, visiting tyson who works at bnb.  sun night it was sarah, a nurse married to zack. mon am was shane, an emt ski patrol etc. i got ‘er done w a little help from my friends.

i walk the 200 yds to bnb for socializing and oatmeal bfast. walking a little further i arrive at a thai restaurant for dinner. i haven’t driven since last thurs. i get sun warmed and batteries charged wher i park behind red agave. i staying in duff’s spare bed room till fri morn. i haven’t moved in as time is short.

i bought new headphones that i wear all night listening to my old music. soft leather ear cups are comfortable. my memory foam bed rest pillow props me up keeping the load off my shoulder.

today my bowls finally let go ending constipation caused by the pain med. stool softener finally kicked.

last night duff arrived w/a scared running free dog, Chihuahua mix. he performed a big heart rescue. she is afraid of us but trust is building w/ me as i spent time outside w/ her while she was leashed.

yesterday shane rose to my challenge for an inner tube  sling so i could take a shower because i need it and water would not be good to the sling. today i removed the sling and shirt and wrapped the tube around my neck and looped around my right forearm, the arm was fully supported per release instructions. very conservative approach to healing.

yesterday afternoon i called surgeon’s aid to learn about surgery. got voice mail. i left a message asking my question. voice mail said i would be answered w/i 24 hours. today at maybe hour 23. another aid but for the same surgeon answered. very difficult to receive patient info. i was told i needed to have a signed release permission form to just to receive the surgeon’s report of what was done but not the surgeon’s assessment. i was told she would email the report. i assumed that would happen by end of business. no such performance. i still do not know of my shoulder’s future. tomorrow?