Back in 1975 I bought a small house on an old mill pond at white oak. Spring time. I had a case of beer and margarita ingredients. I opened the windows protected by screens then left. Upon returning I discovered someone had been inside as several bottles of beer and a window screen was removed. I had been burglarized for the first time. WTF? Kids after beer.
I had been violated. I was shocked and bummed out.
I left the windows open still. A short time later I left again. Again I was visited this time they took more beer , the margarita stuff and they found my pot stash. Shot. Somebody wanted my stuff more than me.
I resupplied my pot then stored it under a couch cushion which was in full view thru slider glass door. At night I left the glass door open. After work one day I lifted the cushion and discovered no stash. Somebody entered my house at night. Several days later while mowing my yard I discovered where someone had hid in the shoreline brush in full view of my living room thru the glass door. Three times in a short while someone had taken something from me. I bought a Lab puppy and the entries stopped.
Years later I moved to Washington where I was victim of many car break ins and the loss of possessions. Just outright anger about the thefts and the loss of important stuff.
Oh well another break in and loss. The loss was still felt but not like the first time. One car break in my day timer w/ years of notes and contacts was stolen, this was b4 I had a computer. I put my life back together and moved on.
Forward now to last year when I had a computer stuffed full of data. My computer and Vista were not playing well together. I took it to a fix it shop. The tech said Windows 7 is the solution. In his effort he did not backup my entire C drive. When I opened up my repaired computer I discovered loss of 6 years of GPS data from my rides and email and more. Data was lost due to ineptness on tech’s part. I had a perpetrator to attack. I wanted so much for him to pay and suffer for all of my losses. Nothing would be gained by attacking him. I walked away just deflated and depressed at my loss.
I moved on less the lost info.
Today another computer repair service is attempting to retrieve data on my C drive that I destroyed in a fit of anger caused by a series of events beyond my control. This time my loss was caused by me. I am buying a new computer and will pickup my life and move on less of even more important stuff than lost w/ the computer upgrade.
My fault of not backing up my computer. I can only beat the person looking back at me in the mirror.
Loss of this data in the computer is like losing my memory. I don’t remember you. I can’t find you. In a way the loss stripped away who I was. The past is important but now it is lost. What is saved are these blog posts.
To me it’s not how hard you fall but how you get back up. I will have a new computer and will start writing my history. My past violations have given me a perspective that I can move forward w/ the loss of memory. I feel a loss of bounce to my step. I am only able to hold myself accountable and I can not be required to testify against myself.
Now if Fed ex delivers my card today.